I was an ex-student in High School Batu Pahat and proudly I would like to say I'm very grateful of what the school had provided for me in the past. 5 years of being a student in the school never seized to amaze me with all the motivation and inspiring people I've met, including fellow friends and teachers.
With the Headmistress being Queen at that time, in a political kind of view I might had been the Premier because of the title Head Boy bestowed upon me during 2010. I've brought many changes in the Board of Prefect and both pros and cons were met approximately perfectly. I went against students, teachers and even ruled the board like a dictator at one time but that was all part of my plan to be an agent of change for the benefit of others.
As a leading figure, I took my responsibilities seriously. With Tun Dr. M being a role model, I made his quote my best friend. That was:
'If I see something wrong, I would make myself be heard and if there's any way I could contribute, I would like to do so'
But being a student, I have to live with the limitations. Voicing out opinions had its limits since any criticism made of the school publicly or any bad comments leaked out could cause my reputation to be tarnished.
1) the committee members of the board were chosen by the headmistress herself during my time. It was very unlikely that she would choose based on the suggestion given by the evaluation team which consisted of teachers who knew the students well.
this had cost me dearly as some members were incompetent and turned out to be bad eggs out of a basket full of good ones which in turn caused certain newly-developed policies to not be carried out in an efficient manner.
2) staffs and teachers, instead of giving supporting-based comments and improvising plans in order to give way to change kept complaining and whining about how the new system is badly supervised.
first of all, a newly-developed system takes time to be accepted and implemented and one year is not enough. It takes years more of supervision and dedication in making sure that the new development policies are well executed before showing positive results.
3) since the education was exam-oriented, teachers should think outside the box. I should give credits to those who dared to challenge the norm by introducing new approaches in order to get our attention and instill interest for a certain subject among us. However, many only focused on finishing the syllabus. Although time is a constraint, it should stay that way and not be made into an excuse.
4) one of thousands weaknesses of our culture is that adults should not be told how to do their job. This is normal. Everywhere you go, seniors are top persons who can't accept 'fresh from the oven' views. This was very disappointing even during my time. Since some views regarding how things SHOULD work were not voiced out during the time when I was a student, I was determined to use the social network as a medium for me to express my thoughts and hope to gain attention from the people who were also on the same page as I am. This was done after I ended my years as a student.
my good intention turned out to be something that some disregarded. I was turned into an antagonist overnight and labelled a 'traitor' as well as 'a good for nothing' for voicing out my views harshly. Furthermore, getting supports from the people through comments on the same topic was seen to be a threat to the schooling community that to an extent, I received a call from one of the high-ranked teachers asking for an explanation.
an apology was published publicly on the same social network website stating that remarks made earlier was due to self-aggression. Sadly, my story became the talk of the schooling community. It was no surprise but I was hoping that my story would be told with a morale value in it but instead it was told with fierce arguments describing how ungrateful and selfish I am.
what I'm trying to highlight here is that educators need to listen more. Open up their minds and hearts to hear what the students have to say. They need to realize that students are getting smarter and that their voices are to be heard and views considered in order for the school to prosper.
Change is essential.
Monday, February 6, 2012
The night's cold breeze blows through the windows of a space-constrained room of the 3rd floor of my rented shop-house. Silence, the companion that even with the slightest sound would disappear, accompanies me in the house cleared off beings as my buddies are out for dinner. I lied to Jack about being under the weather so that I could get some peace of mind with the guys out of the house.
The study table shines brightly onto piles of books, made thick by pages of endless words. I got up and started writing as this heart can’t bear no more the internal pain and grief of loosing grasp of people as this chapter we call life goes on.
I’m slowly beginning to doubt myself.
Thoughts about people, no, friends coming and going keeps haunting my mind for the past a couple of days. Although I'm well aware of those who moved on, somehow bits of my soul and memories; they've taken with them but not to cherish or reminisce on but locked in the depth of unforgiving black hole of the forgotten and abandoned. Realizing this truth, life has to go on.
The pain will heal, but the scar remains there forever. Same applies to a glass vase. No matter how expensive, rare and extraordinarily valuable it is, once shattered into pieces, even a specialized expert cannot put it back together and expect the human's God-given sight to ignore the cracks.
But humans are forgetful. We are forgetful. The sting is likely to be forgotten...
someday, somehow.
Love,
Syuqry
The study table shines brightly onto piles of books, made thick by pages of endless words. I got up and started writing as this heart can’t bear no more the internal pain and grief of loosing grasp of people as this chapter we call life goes on.
I’m slowly beginning to doubt myself.
Thoughts about people, no, friends coming and going keeps haunting my mind for the past a couple of days. Although I'm well aware of those who moved on, somehow bits of my soul and memories; they've taken with them but not to cherish or reminisce on but locked in the depth of unforgiving black hole of the forgotten and abandoned. Realizing this truth, life has to go on.
The pain will heal, but the scar remains there forever. Same applies to a glass vase. No matter how expensive, rare and extraordinarily valuable it is, once shattered into pieces, even a specialized expert cannot put it back together and expect the human's God-given sight to ignore the cracks.
But humans are forgetful. We are forgetful. The sting is likely to be forgotten...
someday, somehow.
Love,
Syuqry
Friday, January 27, 2012
Why can't you accept critics or critiques (chapter 2)
I found a very interesting article in the newspaper. It’s about freedom of speech. It somehow catches my attention to read it in detail. I found out, halfway, that the article was about politics and how an opposition leader results into a desperate measure by suing those who criticize him. Although some may think that such action shows bravery (as suing people has its complex procedures and takes a long period of time to be filed and settled), in my opinion it plainly portrays cowardice and unprofessionalism in accepting criticisms.
So, for this edition of ‘why can’t you accept critics or critiques’ I will address on matters relating retaliations expressed by parties which are in denial of the reality of criticisms that they receive.
Putting aside the topic revolving around politicians (although we know that good-bad comments are a norm in their lives), I will divert your reading focus on why some people (even commoners like us) can’t agree to even the tiniest insignificant (probably to themselves) criticism made by others.
I have a friend who was once a quiet guy. I’m not trying to say that he doesn’t talk that much but he’s a type who doesn’t make a lot of comments nor has he ever talked back to people when it comes to things relating to his self. He did not debate much either in the past as he said he didn’t want trouble and was very satisfied of how the situations were regardless of the consequences of them being at times, hurtful and hard to swallow.
Fortunately university life changed him for the better as now he has the ability to argue within a certain range of rationality. But he’s still learning, bit by bit, the words that he uses in his comments and speeches. Unfortunately, somehow most of the feedbacks, statements and ‘opinions’ that he gives nowadays are in forms of provocation and it clearly shows without a shadow of a doubt that he’s trying to retaliate. Little that he knows, there are a lot of people out there that can easily misinterpret/misunderstand the content of his remarks since his choice of words are that of an amateur.
The main issue here is that although some may be professional enough to accept the fact that the guy is growing up and learning how to speak based on what he claims that everybody has the freedom to do so by law, certain people will just consider it to be an offence.
‘Dude, like seriously you don’t have to like make a debate session out of everything I gotta say or write because in the end we know who’s gonna make a fool out of himself. So, I respect your confidence and courage to express yourself and I’m that professional to take it the positive way as this is you, facing a development stage in your life but honestly (this is fact) try not to piss those who were already quite developed in this area. That being said, I hope something actually flies down the sky and hit your head so damn hard so that it can put some senses into your small ass prehistoric and underused organ you call a brain.’
~some people just waste their brain power on thinking why the sky is blue~
So, for this edition of ‘why can’t you accept critics or critiques’ I will address on matters relating retaliations expressed by parties which are in denial of the reality of criticisms that they receive.
Putting aside the topic revolving around politicians (although we know that good-bad comments are a norm in their lives), I will divert your reading focus on why some people (even commoners like us) can’t agree to even the tiniest insignificant (probably to themselves) criticism made by others.
I have a friend who was once a quiet guy. I’m not trying to say that he doesn’t talk that much but he’s a type who doesn’t make a lot of comments nor has he ever talked back to people when it comes to things relating to his self. He did not debate much either in the past as he said he didn’t want trouble and was very satisfied of how the situations were regardless of the consequences of them being at times, hurtful and hard to swallow.
Fortunately university life changed him for the better as now he has the ability to argue within a certain range of rationality. But he’s still learning, bit by bit, the words that he uses in his comments and speeches. Unfortunately, somehow most of the feedbacks, statements and ‘opinions’ that he gives nowadays are in forms of provocation and it clearly shows without a shadow of a doubt that he’s trying to retaliate. Little that he knows, there are a lot of people out there that can easily misinterpret/misunderstand the content of his remarks since his choice of words are that of an amateur.
The main issue here is that although some may be professional enough to accept the fact that the guy is growing up and learning how to speak based on what he claims that everybody has the freedom to do so by law, certain people will just consider it to be an offence.
‘Dude, like seriously you don’t have to like make a debate session out of everything I gotta say or write because in the end we know who’s gonna make a fool out of himself. So, I respect your confidence and courage to express yourself and I’m that professional to take it the positive way as this is you, facing a development stage in your life but honestly (this is fact) try not to piss those who were already quite developed in this area. That being said, I hope something actually flies down the sky and hit your head so damn hard so that it can put some senses into your small ass prehistoric and underused organ you call a brain.’
~some people just waste their brain power on thinking why the sky is blue~
Monday, January 23, 2012
Why can't you accept critics or critiques (chapter 1)
It has been brought to my attention that most teenagers nowadays are so sensitive towards criticisms given towards themselves. All test subjects were taken among my friends who are still teenagers and although I will not mention names, I hope they realize it and try to interpret as much as they can from this little research of mine.
1) Acceptance is a no-no because their parents had never criticize them on anything before.
- I have a friend who I was very close to and based on my conversation with this person, I found out that his parents rarely get mad at him for doing something which we teens are normally scolded for doing.
- Since he has been brought up withing an environment which too often uses an extremely kind approach, he is vulnerable to hard truths and harsh reality. Any criticism will trigger his nervous system into a chaotic state causing him to keep silent and try as hard as possible to avoid words that can (although to a normal person are actually not) shake him up from a miserable lie he has been living in for ages.
- Not being able to swallow the truth, this person would continue living in a world of lies created (unconsciously) by the mind which if he is not given proper guidance will lead to self-denial resulting into a feeling of unease even if being approached with a mere advice.
- Such people are seen to always be around people which he (in my case) thinks to be real friends. Little that he knows, real friends are those who give advice or criticism in a good manner hoping for him to improve on a particular subject. This person is also seen shifting from one group of friends to another depending on a situation he is in and if one group disagrees with him, he will keep searching for one that's on the same page.
- Living with masks on all the time is a must for this kind of a person. Instead of being true to himself, he is regularly (without being aware of it) found hiding in his own shadows, afraid to come out as truths might shine so brightly that he will be deprived of security about how his life is going to be like with opposing thoughts from others.
1) Acceptance is a no-no because their parents had never criticize them on anything before.
- I have a friend who I was very close to and based on my conversation with this person, I found out that his parents rarely get mad at him for doing something which we teens are normally scolded for doing.
- Since he has been brought up withing an environment which too often uses an extremely kind approach, he is vulnerable to hard truths and harsh reality. Any criticism will trigger his nervous system into a chaotic state causing him to keep silent and try as hard as possible to avoid words that can (although to a normal person are actually not) shake him up from a miserable lie he has been living in for ages.
- Not being able to swallow the truth, this person would continue living in a world of lies created (unconsciously) by the mind which if he is not given proper guidance will lead to self-denial resulting into a feeling of unease even if being approached with a mere advice.
- Such people are seen to always be around people which he (in my case) thinks to be real friends. Little that he knows, real friends are those who give advice or criticism in a good manner hoping for him to improve on a particular subject. This person is also seen shifting from one group of friends to another depending on a situation he is in and if one group disagrees with him, he will keep searching for one that's on the same page.
- Living with masks on all the time is a must for this kind of a person. Instead of being true to himself, he is regularly (without being aware of it) found hiding in his own shadows, afraid to come out as truths might shine so brightly that he will be deprived of security about how his life is going to be like with opposing thoughts from others.
Sunday, January 22, 2012
Why name this group Family if we don't even know what it means.
What does the word 'Family' means to each and every one of you? These will answer your 'what' and 'why' questions.
1) Family is a unit which consists of members of equivalent statuses who cherish moments spent with each other and hope to build more sweet memories between one and another.
This brief definition may be accepted by some of you. But before you do, answer me this question, "have you spent time with each members recently?". What I mean by spending time with each other doesn't always have to be meeting every member and go hanging out at the mall. Spending QUALITY time can be as easy as chatting with each other on skype, sending a text saying hi, calling to ask how they're doing, mentioning their names in tweets and etc. So you see, even a 'how are you' question by text, fb, twitter or etc is somehow meaningful since each family member are far apart from each other and time is a constraint during breaks.
2) Family, a group to which you come to regardless of what situation you're in.
When you have troubles or problems you're facing in life and you feel you need someone to talk to or to just lend their ears to your problem, family members are the ones to be expected of this task. But before you expect every member to be able to do so, answer me this simple question, "did you ever turn your back on them when you feel you already belong somewhere else, someplace better?".
You're a bad member if you forget other members when you're living it good. You're a bad member if you're bias towards members and you're the baddest if you even FAKE among others.
3) Family, is just a name.
If this is how you define Family, then you better step out of the unit. And I know some who even though might be okay with most members but still have issues regarding where does this family unit stand in their life. This is disappointing and a disgrace.
This article I wrote is specially for this beloved group of family that I have. The only one that I have. It's just a general article and I hope non will take it personally. It's just something that we have to reflect on. If we love this unit and want it to co-exist with the one that we already have (our respective families consisting of our mom, dad and etc), we have to be true to ourselves and every members.
I'm actually disappointed with some. Sorry I have to let this out. When the right time comes, I will address SOME personally and to the ones I've lost hope in, nothing can be done to change my stand. As a person who never hates this much before, when I hate, I don't forgive and there's no turning back.
1) Family is a unit which consists of members of equivalent statuses who cherish moments spent with each other and hope to build more sweet memories between one and another.
This brief definition may be accepted by some of you. But before you do, answer me this question, "have you spent time with each members recently?". What I mean by spending time with each other doesn't always have to be meeting every member and go hanging out at the mall. Spending QUALITY time can be as easy as chatting with each other on skype, sending a text saying hi, calling to ask how they're doing, mentioning their names in tweets and etc. So you see, even a 'how are you' question by text, fb, twitter or etc is somehow meaningful since each family member are far apart from each other and time is a constraint during breaks.
2) Family, a group to which you come to regardless of what situation you're in.
When you have troubles or problems you're facing in life and you feel you need someone to talk to or to just lend their ears to your problem, family members are the ones to be expected of this task. But before you expect every member to be able to do so, answer me this simple question, "did you ever turn your back on them when you feel you already belong somewhere else, someplace better?".
You're a bad member if you forget other members when you're living it good. You're a bad member if you're bias towards members and you're the baddest if you even FAKE among others.
3) Family, is just a name.
If this is how you define Family, then you better step out of the unit. And I know some who even though might be okay with most members but still have issues regarding where does this family unit stand in their life. This is disappointing and a disgrace.
This article I wrote is specially for this beloved group of family that I have. The only one that I have. It's just a general article and I hope non will take it personally. It's just something that we have to reflect on. If we love this unit and want it to co-exist with the one that we already have (our respective families consisting of our mom, dad and etc), we have to be true to ourselves and every members.
I'm actually disappointed with some. Sorry I have to let this out. When the right time comes, I will address SOME personally and to the ones I've lost hope in, nothing can be done to change my stand. As a person who never hates this much before, when I hate, I don't forgive and there's no turning back.
Tuesday, November 29, 2011
the bro-hood
Okay sine I'm so into Epic Meal Time in youtube, I decided to post this like a boss and I'm warning some of you out there if you can't stand them cursing words, then you're gonna find my post this time very offensive.
A brother will stay a mother fucking brother. Of course he freaking will. Now lemme give you some names suckas. Amierul Sharafi, Daus Shaaban and the list goes on. The reason why I'm putting these two names only is because lately I'm very close with these bastards. We've been through hell and back. We had our conflicts between one and another, but we settled them adults shit like men and inducted our names on the walls of brotherhood. Nobody, and I mean no-fucking-body can tear our bonds whether you bitches out there like shit or not.
We still keep in touch and god damn we're attached to each other like pigs in mud. Haha. But we were once a trio of brothers. Back in the days, we consists of me, daus, bob and another son of a bitch named apeez. But this bitch did shit and left all three of us hanging. And that's what I would like to address today.
Apeez Adzmi since you were surrounded by girl friends all your school life, lemme knock some sense into your mother-fucking empty head with a brain small like your dick a lil something I called definition of a brother. Once you're a brother, you'll never walk alone nor will you leave another brother to be alone at his time of need. That's something I learn back when I was in high school. Yea, I was in an all boys school. That's why my sense about this topic is way reasonable than you.
But no! You left us! You just gotta break the bro code. And myself, being one of the broken-up four (thanks to your bloody-assed fucking problem with your attitude or views in life or what shit) was disappointed. Lemme make it clear, I'm disappointed NOT angry or mad although the language I use may offend the parties reading this. You might say, 'I don't care'. Well here's a fact, we do. And I fucking hope you get into your senses before I decide to give u my fist to fasten up the process.
We used to go places together, spend nights together hanging out, have sleep overs, talk and talk and talk, play sports, photo hunt, travel and the mother effing list goes on. We were on your side every fucking time you fell and fell hard on the ground. You did some nasty stuff in the past, even to us or caused us trouble, but we stood by you hoping and praying for you to get better. You remember the time we used to go to your house late at night to just talk? Remember that, bitch? I hope you do. We won't forget such wonderful moments.
And now unfortunately for us (mostly me), you turned your back on us. You treat me as if I never even existed in your fucked-up life. I'm sad, sad as sad can be. But you wouldn't know, would you? Why? Because u stopped caring wayyyyy back before I even stepped my foot into uitm mid of this year.
I'm so sorry also. Because on my behalf, I didn't take the initiative to say hi or text or call. I'm fucking busy man. I expect you to be in the same shit as I'm in. But you know my ego. You don't expect a big brother to take the first step to say hi. He will be as ego as some bastards out there will be but deep in his heart, he's hoping that this lil bro of his will come back.
But in your case, I guess we really did lose you. I hope you're fucking happy with your life now. You left a hole in ours and I hope God's forgiving enough not to do the same to you.
I hope you read this :'|
A brother will stay a mother fucking brother. Of course he freaking will. Now lemme give you some names suckas. Amierul Sharafi, Daus Shaaban and the list goes on. The reason why I'm putting these two names only is because lately I'm very close with these bastards. We've been through hell and back. We had our conflicts between one and another, but we settled them adults shit like men and inducted our names on the walls of brotherhood. Nobody, and I mean no-fucking-body can tear our bonds whether you bitches out there like shit or not.
We still keep in touch and god damn we're attached to each other like pigs in mud. Haha. But we were once a trio of brothers. Back in the days, we consists of me, daus, bob and another son of a bitch named apeez. But this bitch did shit and left all three of us hanging. And that's what I would like to address today.
Apeez Adzmi since you were surrounded by girl friends all your school life, lemme knock some sense into your mother-fucking empty head with a brain small like your dick a lil something I called definition of a brother. Once you're a brother, you'll never walk alone nor will you leave another brother to be alone at his time of need. That's something I learn back when I was in high school. Yea, I was in an all boys school. That's why my sense about this topic is way reasonable than you.
But no! You left us! You just gotta break the bro code. And myself, being one of the broken-up four (thanks to your bloody-assed fucking problem with your attitude or views in life or what shit) was disappointed. Lemme make it clear, I'm disappointed NOT angry or mad although the language I use may offend the parties reading this. You might say, 'I don't care'. Well here's a fact, we do. And I fucking hope you get into your senses before I decide to give u my fist to fasten up the process.
We used to go places together, spend nights together hanging out, have sleep overs, talk and talk and talk, play sports, photo hunt, travel and the mother effing list goes on. We were on your side every fucking time you fell and fell hard on the ground. You did some nasty stuff in the past, even to us or caused us trouble, but we stood by you hoping and praying for you to get better. You remember the time we used to go to your house late at night to just talk? Remember that, bitch? I hope you do. We won't forget such wonderful moments.
And now unfortunately for us (mostly me), you turned your back on us. You treat me as if I never even existed in your fucked-up life. I'm sad, sad as sad can be. But you wouldn't know, would you? Why? Because u stopped caring wayyyyy back before I even stepped my foot into uitm mid of this year.
I'm so sorry also. Because on my behalf, I didn't take the initiative to say hi or text or call. I'm fucking busy man. I expect you to be in the same shit as I'm in. But you know my ego. You don't expect a big brother to take the first step to say hi. He will be as ego as some bastards out there will be but deep in his heart, he's hoping that this lil bro of his will come back.
But in your case, I guess we really did lose you. I hope you're fucking happy with your life now. You left a hole in ours and I hope God's forgiving enough not to do the same to you.
I hope you read this :'|
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
Keep In Touch
A: hey, B see you later. Keep in touch.
B: yeah man! keep in touch
Oh please peeps. Really? 'Keep in touch'?
Okay there are a couple of crucial things that I would like to point out this time and our main focus will be these three words. When you use such words (probably in a sentence or it may be standing on its own), do you even know what does it mean? C'mon we're adults. What we say, we must mean it. Don't just go around running your mouth as if you know everything you say and pretend as if people are stupid enough not to understand what you truly mean.
I have lots and lots of friend back at home. And when I'm to return to Shah Alam, many would use these words. But only some managed to keep the promise. And those people are really worthy to be taken seriously as friends. Hey I'm not being emotional or anything but think about it.
Example my friend, A. He always says 'Keep in touch'. But to what extent does he go to really keep his words? Even if this person chats with me on Whatsapp, he'll say the same thing at the end of our conversation. Does he really 'keep in touch'? You answer the damn question.
Most probably, I can accept the fact that MAYBE they're busy doing important stuff like studying, hitting on hot girls/guys etc but to not even 'keep in touch' or even knowing when I'm back in Batu Pahat (my hometown) is a little bit too much!
You don't text/call/tweet/fb/whatsapp when I'm in Shah Alam, okay fine but when I'm back in Batu Pahat and you're still with your ego hoping me to call or text you first to tell you that I'm home and let's hang out? That's an action done by only jerks. NOT FRIENDS!
On the other hand, dome of my closest friends do the same thing. Fortunately I understand them better than anyone. That's why I never question them on such matter. But to those whom I know (regular friends) (and yes I do differentiate my friends. why? got a problem?), you don't come to me and start whining about how I don't tell you i'm back, how I don't call you and ask if you're available to hang with. Because you never kept in touch in the first place.
So if you decide you're a friend or a close one to add, it won't kill to say hello once in a while. If you take the initiative to do so, then I WILL return the favour next time. Its like a cycle. And this is how people get closer even if they're far apart from one another.
Get me? So, instead of posting stupid things on fb or tweeting shitty statements, why don't just say hi to someone regardless of he/she, friends/loved ones for the sake of keeping in touch.
=)
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